You're in for a real surprise!

Since my last post I did CONFIRM pregnancy. I guess that just goes to show you that you can't always be sure that the doctors tests are correct. Our "years" of trying ended up being just a few months. I know still that there are many people out there that do have to try for years and years and to those couples I just hope you get your positive very soon!

We do have a surprise. First we get the horrible news that we may NEVER have children without thousands of dollars invested in the latest medical interventions. We were just coming to grips with that news when we got the positive test results, that we are in fact pregnant.

At 6 weeks, we scheduled an ultrasound to confirm the pregnancy and hopefully see the heartbeat. We brought both our mothers with us for the appointment. I dont know how he was feeling, but I was definitely excited AND nervous. Part of me felt that I didn't want to start celebrating this really surprising blessing just yet because the doctors had already given us this horrible news that we couldn't have kids. I thought of everything, including the possibility that this might even be viable, but even then at least we would know that it wasn't impossible. I tried to think about all the positive things, but I'd be lying if I didn't admit that I had worries sitting in the waiting room, waiting for my name to be called, waiting to start the ultrasound already.

During the ultrasound, the midwife was so quiet. She wasn't showing me the screen, but my family could see a little bit. I kept saying over and over again "is there a heartbeat?" I felt like something was wrong because she was spending so much time looking at the screen. I probably repeated myself at least five times before she spoke.

Then she says "Well, Im just really distracted by the fact that there are TWO gestational sacs.

That's RIGHT! We're expecting TWINS!!!! 

When she said twins I started crying, laughing hysterically, turning bright red, and I had pretty much every emotion under the planet at the same time. I was happy they both had great heartbeats, they were both doing well for only being 6 weeks, they were TWO not one. I couldn't ask for more, but hearing that news is a total shock. It's a mix between panic of "OMG, I've never been a mother to ONE child and now I'm having two." to "Wow, we really struck gold. Maybe we should buy a lotto ticket because how did we go from not being able to have kids to now we are having two babies, not one."

Ultimately, I guess my fiance got his wish. He would always say he wanted two and i would always reply "We'll have one and see how that goes and then decide." I always figured we gotta at least try to do our best with one before we plan the rest right? Well, like I said in one of my first posts, life certainly has different plans that any of us could ever imagine. 

So begins Our Twin Life, as we will come to know it, you will too! 

This is a place I will write about the milestones of the pregnancy, the changes, the good and the bad. Their birth, but also being a first time mom to twins I know this will be a huge rewarding challenge in my life filled with good times and not-so-good times. There will be victories and hurdles. Im sure there will be plenty of sleepless nights, delirious ramblings, and things that I just have to learn along the way. No advice is going to prepare me enough for what these two bundles of joy will bring into my life, but hopefully other mom's of multiples can relate and hopefully this will be some kind of help to moms-to-be of multiples. Im not an expert at any of this, so this is all new to me, just as it might be new to you.